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The Year That Went By I started with this blog sometime last night when there still was time and when I still was twenty two but as they say time flies and all that it leaves behind is a fleeting remembrance and these memories are really the most tragic of all things because the moment you think of letting go of them
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The Five Loves of My Life First of all, this blog isn’t a list of things which I like because for one lists are girly and second of all (irrespective of the trouble that I have gone through writing about the stuff which I actually like when it would have been remarkably easy for me to write about stuff which I hate)
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The High School If there is a place where the difference between various factions of humanity is stark like a naked butt then it has to be the high school, one look is all that you will need to differentiate between people for high school is the place where despite of everything we never want to break out of our
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Fight or Flight?? Fight or flight? Given a choice what would you choose the safety of your abode or slicker edge of the sword? More importantly I think, it’s not our action but the intent behind that matters because more often than not in our life’s most of the choices are already made for us, made eit
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A Thousand Sleepless Nights A thousand lies couldn’t have changed my destiny A thousand broken dream And I am still confusing this perception for reality. A thousand words couldn’t have expressed the truth A thousand forsaken roads And I am still confusing this loneliness for solitude. A thousand
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The Five Questions of My Life When I was young my mom use to buy me these color books with all those triangles, rectangles and circles and I would lose myself for several hours, trying to fill all these myriad shapes and figures with colors of my imagination. Some figures were meant to be filled with red, blue or green, whil
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View from a Park Bench A dull ache permeates through these winds As your feet rustle through these yellow autumn leaves Silent clouds of melancholy filling your eyes With unfallen tears Waiting like a dry and yellow unfallen autumn leave Waiting for a gust, waiting for a release. Passing through th
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Lost and Found Somewhere along this road Somewhere along these treacherous ravines There lay scattered, all the remnants of my perfect life This is where someday I’ll find All the unaddressed questions of this unaddressed life Countless are the memories of those sleepless nights When I scal
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Cemetery of Broken Hearts Each of these wounds tell a different story Of long lost love and relationship Buried somewhere along my heart’s cemetery Someday somewhere amidst all these graves It will find its resting place With an epitaph carved By the very hands which killed this heart. S
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Games that I Played Childhood for me has always been synonymous with bruised knees and elbows and an occasional chipped tooth and broken ankle though I was a big time couch potato, watching almost every other movie on our dear old Doordarshan while guzzling copious amount of biscuits dipped in tea but nevertheless
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The Table Art “Impossible is possible”, this was the line scribbled alongside a quirky remark about life and girlfriends and how they both sucked and an almost defaced, probably by a jealous lover Kiran loves Shobhana, there were several others as well love notes, phone numbers and lots of names, a
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Ramblings of a Sleepless Mind Could our thoughts actually kill us, I sometimes wonder especially, on those long and sleepless nights when my mind couldn’t bring itself to rest from inexorable and inveterate spinning of yarn after yarn of these intermittent and concomitant thoughts, won’t it be great if for once we
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Would You Die For The You Love??? Sometime back, though I am not exactly sure when, I heard this story, story as in an allegory, kind of a rhetoric, a glorified question mark which makes you think and more often than not leave you feeling undecided about which side should you chose though your choice do not really matter for irre
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Song of Broken Dreams Oh, Father of the fair wind Take my soul to those distant fields Place where the songbird sings Songs of an unbroken dream Walking through the rain, sometimes I cried Tears of remorse and blatant lies Some place where I could run and hide Away from the piercing shards
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Traditions, Non-Confirmation and Conversations with God Traditions can sometimes be encumbering or downrightly ridiculous, more so when you are the one supposedly entrusted with the task of forbearing or upholding them and the situation become even more interesting or rather sticky when couldn’t bring yourself to care a dime about them and as to
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My New Friend and Strangeness of CyberWorld “Distances are good, without distances no one can relate.” This was the phrase which my moral science teacher really emphasized on all through my tenth standard though I think it was a part of her personal vendetta to keep boys away from girls, perhaps she thought all those excrucia
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Past as future Ever wondered how people change, no movie like sound effects or no unbelievably true and colorful SFX and all of sudden everything changes, one minute and an absolute imbecile is miraculously evolved into a sage all resplendent with worldly and other worldly wisdom or vice versa. Just the oth
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Movies, Books and Reviews Ever being caught between a devil and a high sea? I kind of landed myself in a similar quandary when my friends asked me to come along for a movie, imagine my predicament trying to decide between a movie so full of clichéd plot and grossly overrated actors who know nothing better than to
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I am in Love and I can Feel it in My Toes I am in love and it took me several antacids and a doctor to figure out that the tingling feeling at the bottom of my stomach isn’t heartburn but rather a heartache. It’s been quite a time, if I remember correctly and seriously once you grow past your twenties the amount of baggage y
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The Five Unreality's of Life I was browsing through some content on internet, okay I was bored and basking in my state of perpetual abeyance I went through a couple of websites, not porn though it would have been better had I paid them a visit but instead I ended up flipping through websites belonging to the leading men&rsqu
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Life As I Saw It I was sitting in my class, staring haplessly at the girl sitting across the aisle from me, contemplating or rather trying to decipher each of her maneuvers though apart from a furtive glance or two there weren’t any. I tried listening to the teacher and for a full minute strived real
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Words Sometimes I am completely left dumbstruck by the prowess of our words, given that words are nothing more than few keystrokes or a few syllable sounds brought together by semantics and nuances of language, the way they can actually mould the way people perceive about us is breathtaking. Being a p
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Love isn't Easy Truth isn’t always soothing Sometimes words that console could break a heart I made a choice to give you what you wanted But if only I would have known These very words would tear us apart. I told you what you wanted to hear You may say I lied to you I admit, what I said
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Life, Rain and Heart Breaks I saw the clouds rolling in today, covering the sky with a shade of evanescent black and infatuating the air with a sweet intoxication. A promise of cooler days hung in the air as they unrolled covering the entire landscape with a whitest of white sheet and all that remained of the glorious suns
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Life, Holidays and Cry Babies Why is that sometimes time simply stops moving and this happens especially when you are sitting on a hot afternoon in a state transport bus with sun glaring on your face and all that you can do apart from cursing this god damn weather is to stare at your watch and hope for those needles to move
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Life, Social Networking and Hip Hop It’s been quite a time, long time in fact since I sat down and thought about the life and the way it’s going for me. Life is good if you ask me, better than what it has ever been for me, and apart from few hiccups it has more or less been a smooth sailing. Sometimes I am filled with s
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Life and Campus Placements I had my campus interview yesterday, not my first one though and it feels like it’s not going to be my last one as well. Result is supposed to be around anytime now and so far I have done really well to keep my sanity intact, I have literally locked myself in my room and my IPod is engaged
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The Chronicles of an Exasperated Traveller I should have written this blog a long time back has it not been for my summer break and my perspective of leaving the life behind while on vacation but after almost a week of basking in my state of abeyance and watching endless hours of sitcoms and gorging on food and sleeping, I think my r
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The BankerGirl There is a girl and she works with a bank, I don’t know her name though, perhaps I forgot it but that’s a completely different matter. She sits on the second desk to the left just next to the exit so I am like making a guess here that she is not that high up on the ladder of hiera
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So Long Ago Being so long It feels like another life Feels like another time Time without you by my side Like the afternoon sky So bright that it hurt my eyes Turn away or hold me close For I want to feel your heart beat against mine. Walking along the edge That divides the two cha
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The StoryTeller- Episode II He sat there on the sand staring at those waves as they raced and leapt across each other to kiss the shore, his gaze wondered to the forlorn and forsaken light house, more of a silhouette than a monolith and he thought of the days gone by they too like the light house were standing tall but
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The StoryTeller He was a storyteller and he dwelt in his own story land. He was a king and the master of all those who believed in his stories. There were no people but characters that he could control and manipulate at his whims. He was a puppet master, controlling all his characters, pulling, snapping or twitchin
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What women want? Women are complicated, twisted or devious or equivocal or whatever you may associate vagueness with. Actually, much more than being vague, they have a tendency to associate their very own reasons and logic with whatever words they are speaking and more often than not these reasons like t
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Saturday Night Boozer I am sitting all alone in my room now and my friends in the other room, right now, are all boozing and singing some song from almost an antediluvian Hindi movie and those jerks forgot to bolt their windows right and as such I am also murmuring those verses along with them. Last time when thes
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Obama v/s Hillary Monday morning blues or rather every morning blues, have become so much part of my life that I don’t really remember the last time when I wouldn’t have to struggle and drag myself out of the bed. You wake up at six-thirty, the hour when almost half the world around you is fast asleep, an
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My Father's SweetHeart I remember when I was a kid, my father used to have this 1989 Ambassador, an old, dilapidated, recalcitrant piece of junk metal, painted the darkest shade of black which owing to incessant rain and crow droppings appeared more grey than black. It was my father’s sweetheart or this w
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Matrimony?? I was having this conversation with my aunt the other day, kind of heart to heart wherein she in her sweet and endearing voice was hurling expletives at me and I like an obnoxious nephew was rethrowing them back at her, conversation that would have ended with me sharing and salvaging space w
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Venus significat Humanitatem Life is unpredictable, isn’t it? A moment you are sitting all by yourself, condemning the world for leaving you alone, when in fact it’s you who chose this solitude for yourself and suddenly the door pops open and out streams all your friends and people who have always cared about
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The fall of Icarus Last week I had my bi-semester assessment exams and as with each passing day now, I realize the blunders that I have committed. Blunders such as describing a database to be of confirmation type when it should have been classification or writing story about classpaths when no more than two li
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Jab we met I have waited for this for all of my life It is something I cannot define I have felt it since we first met All those walks through rains and sunset Walk towards me one step at a time For I want to look you deep in your eyes Let me have this dance with you tonight And I promise
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memoirs of the night Everybody needs a shoulder to rely Sometimes reasons are not what you need to cry For the memories of your past refuse to die So sad, so true and so out of time Like a dream that survived through the night And stayed with you through the day and through your life Your heart is burd
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Spidey-The Spider There used be a spider, living somewhere along the walls in my room. His webs seemed to infiltrate each and every corner of my room, from my closet to bookshelves but I never really bothered him or myself with his activities more so because he was perhaps the only company that I have through
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Girls and their Unmentionables I was in the cafeteria today, standing in the queue waiting for my turn at the cash counter and there was this bombshell, nail-bitingly beautiful girl standing ahead of me. She had a fairy with her wings and wand tattooed on her nape and her hairs were streaked with at least ten different shades of
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gift from a devil I want to give you something But my life is the only gift I can give I want to tell you something But my life is all lies and truth is what you seek I have been known to go back on my promises But to care for you and stand by you Is the only promise that I can give. I have been
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boys don't cry "Take care son", these were the parting words from my father when he came to drop me off for the college. Just these words and a gentle squeeze, I was hoping for a hug though but then if he would have hugged me, I for sure would have broken down and started crying, then and there, right in the mid
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twisted I used to chase shadows for a living Never thinking but always believing Believing in the painted picture and its beauty Accepting the world and its deceit in its entirety This is your world and this is the realty This is what they told me, friends and my family. Web of words sp
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things people do There is this orphanage which is supported or in way adopted by our batch. It’s a sort of tradition which every sophomore is supposed to be withholding and as to who started this tradition and when, I don’t think anyone would have a slightest idea. It’s kind of cool though, raisi
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girl in the cafe Day before was supposed to be the weekend but my college people really thought otherwise when they announced a class for us. Attendance is the biggest tyrant of all, it can make you to wake up at 7.30 on a cold Saturday morning, drag your sorry ass out of the bed and have a cold shower b
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valentine's day? Valentine’s Day is coming and I can feel an endless lovey-dovey vibe populating the world around me. Stores are all stacked with teddy bears, tiny heart shaped chocolates, greeting cards, perfumes and even the roses along the sidewalk have chosen to bloom for the sake of all those who consider
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are we jerks? “Sometimes I wonder if men and women really suit each other. Perhaps they should live next door and just visit now and then”. These lines are said by Katherine Hepburn and I have spent the entire day reflecting on them. These lines as a matter of fact happen to be in perfect sync with th
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strangers in strangeland I have cried through darkness and I have searched through the night Trying to find the meaning and life, that was once mine I look up at the sky; I see the stars still twinkling and bright And I know something’s in life never change Then I saw you standing across street and you loo
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if tomorrow comes Today, I got to sit with the hottest girl in my class. I wasn’t really dying to sit with her or anything but teacher caught me talking with my friend and ordered me to go and sit in the front row. There wasn’t much choice though, I could have only chosen between the two ends of the desk
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before i get married I am staring at my computer screen waiting for an inspiration to strike me. I want to write something and I have no idea as to what that something is. I have spent my entire day with the same feeling of wanting to do something and all I have done is to watch television and sleep. Perhaps it’s
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age of innocence We all at some point of time or other stood at the threshold that demarcates between innocence and adulthood. Sooner or later, we all make that transition and sooner or later, we all realize that standing and waiting on that threshold was perhaps the most beautiful of all life’s experiences. S
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love finally? Some days back, I went on an evening out with my girlfriend. We went to really chic and up market coffee shop. I was really looking forward to this evening and it was all too perfect. The coffee for a change was really hot and splendid, ambience was soothing and my girlfriend, to top it all, was unu
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Deserted Town Each time I look in the mirror It’s your face that I see You were the one who made me. Each empty space I look Each dark street I walk It’s you I feel walking beside of me. Each of my breath reminds me of you And of every step that you taught me And of every insta
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The night of dreams It was a night of dreams and love was in the air Their bodies moved to the rhythm and music was everywhere Their eyes were close but still they could see All the love that filled their hearts setting their soul free The world retreated as he looked deep in her eyes There was nothing b
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my life so far Sooner or later, we all have to face the demons inside of us. Some people actually like living with them because they like being reminded of all those proud and sometime really loathsome moments of their lives. To some extent we all live in the past. We live by the memories of all those times when w
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someday Someday this storm will abate Sometime this night will end And a new morning will come With a new sun adorning our face We have survived through this all And we will outlast all bullets in your tow We have spend our lives in a stockade Waiting for you to respond We may forg
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life is strange Life is strange. One moment all that you want to do is hold onto whatever things you posses and the other moment you just want to give it all away. One moment to decide for a thing and the other you regret making that choice. It’s like the people whom you have detested all the way long suddenl
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theme song I look up at the sky and I cannot see the stars The lights are glittering my eyes And music is drowning my voice I feel my feet as they move to the rhythm And I can feel a new spirit surging through me Don’t tell me it won’t last forever For I haven’t seen such a
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chronicles of a selfish being I seen people usually are wary of recluses and they are very quick on their part to label them as anti social. I just can’t see why they can’t accept someone the way he is. Why they have to brand people who do fail to live up to the criterion that they have defined for themselves? They a
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finding neverland I was thinking sitting here in my bedroom with my laptop dangling precariously at the edge of my bed that what really goes inside the heads of people as we talk with them. I just had this thought when my girlfriend was breathing those sweet nothings down my neck and I was like thinking about finding
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it was never easy Sometime you lie awake in your bed Thinking of the words you shouldn’t have said And lots of hearts that you could have mend The mistakes that you shouldn’t have made Wishing that your life lets you walk some other way You bury your face deep in the pillow So that no on
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you have it in you to pull it through Sometimes you couldn’t sleep With so many things playing on your mind The life that you wished but haven’t defined So many choices you have to clarify And commitments you have to stand by It’s never been easy to walk alone With the burdens and expectations pulling
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every night i lie awake Every night I lie awake staring at the ceiling Watch my life go around with the hurricane I tell myself that I need to make it stop But all I can do is to watch myself drifting away with it This was not the way things were to be And this was not the way life was supposed to be. I
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i was to go back in time I was to ever go back in time I would go back to the moment we last met I would redecorate it with flowers And place a fountain with a cupid somewhere I would eliminate all those people who were up there And say whatever I have always wanted to say If I were to go back in time
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i don't want to leave you tonight I tasted the poison and it felt like life I have walked across the fire just to be with you tonight I don’t want this night to end I don’t want you to leave my side I have ran across the ocean just to be with you tonight I want to lie beside you And watch the stars as t
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if it rains If it rains Clouds would not be the one to bleed alone tonight You have always loved the rain I remember the way you used to jump in puddles and splash water Rain always lend your eyes a glint of mischief Rain made you wild I remember the moments when we walked through the rai
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across the street I saw you standing across the street Looking confused and baffled We have walked quite a few distances together You loved walking and I loved to hold your hand And when you talked it was like sunshine would flood into my world I looked at you standing at the intersection tucking
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i want to love you I want to love you, to feel you, to stand beside you I want to kiss you, to hurt you, to hold you in my arms when you tremble “Do you love me?” I want to ask you, I want to lie beside you and see you as you fall asleep in my arms I want to be there when you reach for
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weird Today I just had the weirdest of all experience. I was supposed to be visiting one these new age banks in order to remit my college fees. I reached there somewhere at around 12 noon and today been Monday was the most overwhelmingly busy day for everyone in the bank. There were people everywhere, wai
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will you wait for me when you wake in the morning and look at your facei may not be there with you i may be far i may be awaythink of me when the dusk has fakken on that lonely mountainremember me when the sun rays pierce through the morning mist.you may choose to move onbut promise me that when i call to you,you will l
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the hunted It was 3.00 am in the morning. The time when the human spirits are at their lowest ebb. But some people like him are in their best element when half the world is fast asleep. He was an assassin, a person who was paid to kill. He was a professional and took great pride in his work. He was meticulous
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i am missing my friends It’s has been 2 days since I have been home and already I am missing my college. Strange isn’t it that we spend our entire term waiting for it to end and when it does end all that we do sitting at our homes is wait for it to start over again. Anyway I am sitting right over here at my hom
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