Kabir Bedi On Why He Was Attracted To Parveen Babi And How He Ended Open Marriage With First Wife Protima Gupta

Kabir Bedi has been a man who has often been under the media spotlight. His life has been talked about by everyone and his personal life was more in discussion than his professional life. Now, he has decided to bare open his life in his upcoming book, Stories I Must Tell: The Emotional Journey of an Actor. He will not just talk about his journey in Bollywood, but also his journey through love. In an excerpt, he has opened up about why he fell for actress Parveen Babi while being married to Protima Gupta and why he ended his open marriage with the latter after that.

In a segment, Kabir Bedi wrote, "Our (his and Protima Gupta's) open marriage may have seemed like a good idea at first. In the end, it only caused me greater anxiety. It had led to a lack of intimacy between us. I didn't feel the love that I wanted, the caring and sharing I needed. Nor was I able to give it. The old magic had gone. I was feeling alone, empty and dejected. Parveen Babi filled that void. She was a ravishingly beautiful actress with fair skin, long black hair and dark, mesmerising eyes. Until then, I'd always thought of her as 'the girlfriend of Danny Denzongpa'. He was a good-looking Sikkimese actor, two years younger than me, a year older than Parveen. In the years ahead, he would become a highly successful villain in Bollywood and be nominated for many Filmfare Awards. Parveen began her rapid rise to stardom during their four years together. Her living openly with Danny, wearing jeans and smoking in public, had given her a bohemian image in India. But, morally, she was a conservative Gujarati girl. While the rest of the Juhu gang talked about the 'free sex' preaching of Guru Osho, she believed in sexual fidelity. It's what I was looking for when I fell in love with her."

He also recounted how Protima has 'burst out crying' when he revealed to her how much he loved Parveen Babi. He wrote, "There was no easy way to break the news (to Protima). 'I'm going over to Parveen's tonight,' I said softly when she came in. 'Parveen's!' she repeated in surprise. I could see her computing what must have happened. 'But I've only just arrived. Can't you stay tonight at least?' I shook my head. 'No, I have to be with her tonight ... and every night.' In that moment, she realised that our relationship had changed forever. She let out a deep breath and looked at me. 'Do you love her?' I nodded, not without sadness. 'Does she love you?' she asked, her voice a notch higher. 'Yes,' I said gruffly, wanting to cry. I knew I was ending a relationship where we'd shared life-changing experiences together, happy and unhappy, moral and immoral, for six tumultuous years. But I didn't want to show vulnerability. I had to be strong to end it. I held her by the shoulders to embrace her goodbye. She clung to me and burst out crying. Then she sat down on the bed and sighed deeply before she spoke. 'Please leave me alone now,' she said in a firm voice as tears welled in her eyes. 'Leave me alone. Please go!' Our 'open marriage' was over."

Kabir Bedi has been married four times. He is now married to Parveen Dusanjh, with whom he toed the knot a day before his 70th birthday..